Cleaning Out the Files by Ann Lutgen

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I had no idea what Neuro-Linguistic Programming was, much less what a tool it can be for re-vamping my life. In thinking back on the reasons that got me interested in seeking your help, all I wanted was to get a handle on my “fight or flight” syndrome. That pattern of behavior was the driving force that kept me hitting the brick wall over and over, again and again. I had no idea that I was going to clear up so many stale patterns and beliefs that were of no use to me and some that were quite crippling.

Being the control freak that I am, I thought I would be more in charge of my sessions, but it was clear from the first journey back, that I was to give it up, and let what ever happen, happen. As I was asked to start my journey back in time, I felt a strange sensation in my neck. I heard a loud popping sound and felt my neck release. As I continued to go back to the point of origin for the belief that was causing my fight or flight syndrome, I thought it would be a visual picture that would come to me. I was interested in seeing where I was, and what I was wearing etc., all that important stuff you know. I do not know how I could have been “looking” for something, when it was totally auditory. As I learned from my subsequent sessions, some were visual, some emotional and some multi-sensory.

The first journey back however, was to be listened to, and listen good, the words seemed to say. The repetition and volume were finally enough to get my attention, and it wasn’t earth-shattering stuff. The main message was... “You are worthy.” It was the after effect this message produced that was so strong and memorable. After I opened my eyes and became aware of the room again, I did have a visual experience. I saw hundreds and thousands of filing cabinets going off into the distance for as far as I could see and drawers opening up and papers flying out and coming to the center to be processed through an enormous shredder. I remember trying to set up my next appointment and all I wanted to do was watch this visual. It was like a scene out of the black and white movie, “Citizen Kane.”

That “purging” was so effective, it led the way for other beliefs to fall by the wayside. I remember looking at events or articles in the paper and thinking, I do not believe that about myself any more. My interactions with my family and co-workers, and clients are different and more effective than before. Another benefit was my neck continued to be more relaxed and my range of motion was greatly increased.

The final session with the planning aspect was also great fun. I didn’t get all the answers I wanted, but I have to say it is very effective to visualize myself in the future with what I want. I remember I was disappointed because I was telling myself that I had to wait to get the house that I want. But the new car came to me easily and even though I put that goal within a very short time frame, I wasn’t worried about the outcome. So, I wasn’t too surprised when a few weeks later, I actually did purchase my new car, with no hassles, and with the dollar amount that I had specified in my goal planning.

I continue to see a difference in my day to day life. After all the sessions, the physical changes are mystifying but I am not complaining. I had been bothered with a bone spur in my heel for several months and that pain is now gone and the mobility in my neck is wonderful. I am able to easily fit the meditation and Yoga, and Qi Gong practice into my daily routine. I am coming from a more centered attitude and finally getting what I want out of life, without the struggle that so engulfed me before.

So, thank you so much for guiding me back to rethink, undo, and unravel the beliefs that were so debilitating, and go forward with a clear vision of what I want, and most importantly, how to get it.